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| today i cried. after looking at the entries that Dave have put up about ESOAL and watching the videos my heart broke. i have seen the pain and the effort that many have gone through to be in ESOAL and most of all i have seen the product that comes out by one going through the event. i weep not because i am not there having fun. i weep because my heart cries out to see this transformation in peoples lives. i live to see this kinda growth through young people of the world. During ESOAL i have had many that have come to me and said "i need to ring out" and the look in there eye of brokenness of pain and of joy has been the greatest reward for me in my whole life. To be a part of a life changing event in ones life is priceless to me. my prayers are with all who are a part of ESOAL this year. "Never give up! Never give in!" Capt. Jeff Warren E.S.O.A.L. Vet. 3 tours ESOAL is the reason that when i write about myself i do not capitalize the letter "i". because i am no one. My identity lyes in the One above. | | |
| so today at work is the Santana concert. i really do have a hard job. anyway i have been presented with the life long question that most people face over , should i buy a house or not. i know thats kind of a loaded question but at last t it is in front of me. you know after that question there is the one of do i want to lock myself in one place for 10-15 years.... and then is it the right house?... and also there's the is it the wise decision that will play into my future question. so what to do??? im not sure and i know that its a big decision in my life but when ever these things come about in my life i don't stress, or try not, i relax and sit back and wait for the door to be opened up in front of me. i wish i had the crystal ball that i could look into and then see when my life is going to be and then make the right decisions to get there. but this is where faith comes into play. im at a cross road right now of many things in my life and i think i will (sorry dave) camp out here until someone puts a road sign here. | | |
| its been too long since the last time i have posted. i am now finding out that i have more time on my hands then i did a month ago. so here we go with the updates: i no longer live in Texas for multiple reasons. I now live in the hat of Texas also know as Oklahoma. I received a job offer to work in OKC at the arena down town and took it. I have now lived here for a little over a year now. The job is great but very demanding. whenever there is an event going on there, concert, sporting event, or other I am there. I over see the technical side of the building. Sound, lights, video boards, scoreboards,etc. stuff like that. Its fun at times but non stop hard work the other times. I live outside the city right now but will be moving into down town in a house in a month or two. I have since meet a girl and we have started dating and have now been together for 6 months. There have been lots of talk about the future between us both, i will leave it at that. She is a photographer and is finishing up her master's degree at OCU. Currently she is in Argentina going to school and working on a photo project. Again im sorry for not writing sooner, there has been alot of things that have been going on in my life between then and now. I will try to slowly clue you guys in on whats going on in my life. I am happy that i am writing again (thanks dave you blogs inspire me to be a better man and better all a round person.) talk to yous soon. ps praying for ESOAL. wish i could be there | | |
| i have climbed highest mountains. i have run through the fields. Only to be with you. i have run, i have crawled, i have scaled these city walls. Only to be with you. But i still haven't found what i'm looking for. Felt the healing of her fingertips, it burned like a fire, with a burning desire. i have spoken with eternal angels. i have held the hands of a devil. It was warm in the night, i was cold as a stone. i believe in the kingdom come when all the colors will bleed into one. Well, yes i'm still running.You broke the bonds and you lossed the chains. Carried the cross of my shame
you know i believed it. But i still haven't found what i'm looking for....
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| so i haven't posted in a long time. but i don't want to be one of those people that every time they post they say "i haven't posted in a long time...." everytime they post. and so when you read it all the person's posts start off with "...uuhhh i haven't posted in a long time but here i go (pot head surfer voice)...." so thats probably the last time i say the key words " I HAVEN'T POSTED IN A LONG TIME..." so from this day on (until Jesus comes back) everytime i want to say "i haven't posted in a long time..." i will just say " I suck..." and you will know what i mean. | | |
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